Private to Asgard, Hackable
There's information I've kept from you about the other side, and I'm sorry. I needed some time to process it myself and.. Well, I prefer not talking about myself unless I have to. It looks like it would help if I did, in this case.
When our bodies were switched around, I woke up in the body of Strix, a woman from Hell's side, and I learned things about her. Actually, I learned a lot about her.
She has a thirst for blood, human.. namely. I've never felt anything like this before, it's overwhelming. She must have had a very long time to gain control over it; I don't think she's rampaging through the halls of Hell right now.
I spent all day with this, talking to Strix about things that I would rather keep to myself. By evening, my own control over it was edging away, and an hour or so later, it was gone. I turned into a monster on the outside. I lost myself in it, my own will. From what I've gathered, I attacked L and Frank. Frank saved us both, and helped me immensely.
That monster form is feathered, I remember that much. It did some damage to the wall with what I imagine were pretty large talons.
This thing consumes you, you lose yourself in it completely. It's dangerous, and... it was something you all needed to know about.
I'm sorry.
EDIT:
Despite what L continues to think, Strix was never controlling me. The change effected my amygdala and frontal lobe: the parts of my brain which effect rational thinking, aggression, and the idea of consequences for actions. In the time I was in that form, I can only explain what happened as these parts were blown up, or blown out of proportion.
I hope that explains that, I don't want a misunderstanding. The change in my form- in my body- was complete, and effected my brain and insides as well as my outside.
When our bodies were switched around, I woke up in the body of Strix, a woman from Hell's side, and I learned things about her. Actually, I learned a lot about her.
She has a thirst for blood, human.. namely. I've never felt anything like this before, it's overwhelming. She must have had a very long time to gain control over it; I don't think she's rampaging through the halls of Hell right now.
I spent all day with this, talking to Strix about things that I would rather keep to myself. By evening, my own control over it was edging away, and an hour or so later, it was gone. I turned into a monster on the outside. I lost myself in it, my own will. From what I've gathered, I attacked L and Frank. Frank saved us both, and helped me immensely.
That monster form is feathered, I remember that much. It did some damage to the wall with what I imagine were pretty large talons.
This thing consumes you, you lose yourself in it completely. It's dangerous, and... it was something you all needed to know about.
I'm sorry.
EDIT:
Despite what L continues to think, Strix was never controlling me. The change effected my amygdala and frontal lobe: the parts of my brain which effect rational thinking, aggression, and the idea of consequences for actions. In the time I was in that form, I can only explain what happened as these parts were blown up, or blown out of proportion.
I hope that explains that, I don't want a misunderstanding. The change in my form- in my body- was complete, and effected my brain and insides as well as my outside.
so many things at once
exhausted
worried